wtf emma

I really don’t even know how to feel at this point. I don’t know if he’s not fully there, or if i’m not. I feel like maybe there is something stopping me from letting myself be fully vulnerable, but I just don’t understand what it could be. He’s all I’ve ever wanted, and I know this because I had to convince myself he was what I really wanted before I fought for him. Theres just something clouding my mind. Maybe its the fact that he’s moving away for university and I won’t be able to see him everyday at school, or the fact that he’s taking it so lightly.